I am so sorry that your mother did that to you.. My mother also did a similar thing with a book I wrote in.. It wasn't a diary.. It was more of a book that I would use to vent out poetry/nasty thoughts in my head. I needed it at the time and it was my alternative way of coping with the household situation that I was in. She found it one day and read it to everyone. Even the neighbors... After that, I find it incredibly hard to expose any true emotions I feel to anyone. It was devastating.. I can't even imagine how much stress and trauma your mother put you through by doing such a thing with an even more personal issue :(

I know she will slowly fade out of my life as I gain more control of myself and I am happy for it to be that way. It's just hard in the current situation I am in to find any form of real support.

In the meantime, I am putting all of my effort into getting through school. Grades are doing good and sometimes when under stress self harm becomes a factor but I do not see it as something negative. I see it as more of a reason to get back up on my feet and continue walking down that long road of life. I want to make something of myself and I will not give up until I do.

Apologies for the delayed reply. I hope all is well for you.