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[–]theonlycuregirl 26 points27 points ago

Good Vibes, Good Vibes

I was diagnosed six years ago, and currently in a flare. I'm here if you want to talk.

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 7 points8 points ago

I moved my scan from Tuesday to today because of the severity of my not well feeling. Can you describe how MS feels? Because so far, this is all speculation till I get the results.

... I'm sitting in the radiology dept waiting room right now. They gave me a beer to call when they are ready for me. I feel like I'm in a hospital/Fuddruckers. :/

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 9 points10 points ago

Er... Not beer, *beeper. That is an embarrassing typo.

[–]hookertime 12 points13 points ago

I would imagine a beer would help with the stress. I'm sending good vibes your way now.

[–]civilian11214 4 points5 points ago

lol, good vibes from hookertime. That beats mine.

[–]hookertime 7 points8 points ago

Always a good time when it's hookertime

[–]civilian11214 2 points3 points ago

One of the truisms of life.

[–]theonlycuregirl 6 points7 points ago

MS is different for everybody. That's why it's so difficult to diagnose. My great-grandmother had it and was immobile for decades of her life, for me it's a lot of pain, hard core fatigue, and vision problems. May I ask what tests you've had so far? Have you has a spinal tap? MRI?

Everyday is different. I never really know what to expect from day to day. Stress can catapult me straight into a flare up. While in a flare I can sleep for 24 hours, and have zero energy even after all that sleep. Pain like I got tackled and beat up. Whiplash even.

I was diagnosed when I lost my vision. Almost completely. That's called Optic Neuritis. My optic nerve was literally eating itself. I've since gained most of it back, except for my night vision. I can't drive at night. At all. I also get severe heat intolerance, which began a couple years ago. I was able to go w.o medication for a few years, but I take a weekly shot now. So far, I don't notice it helping, but my next MRI will see.

I wish you all the best, friend. PM me later and let me know how your appt went.

Still sending good vibes. Light & Love -M.

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 2 points3 points ago

So far the only test I've had is the MRI I had today (aside from multiple blood tests that at this point seem unrelated). It was a brain MRI, not the lumbar.

Thank you for the support and thank you for sharing, I will PM you with an update as soon as I know anything.

But as far as the MRI goes... It sucked. I'm a claustrophobic person, which didn't really come into play so much. The thing that got me unnerved is that after about 20 minutes in, my head kind of started spinning... Did not like that at all.

[–]theonlycuregirl 1 point2 points ago

It does suck. I'm sorry you had to go through that.

xo

[–]rolandfaraday 0 points1 point ago

ativan helped me with the claustrophobia.

it still felt like being buried alive, but i didn't care...

[–]lionheartednyhc 1 point2 points ago

As someone else mentioned, it's hard to describe because symptoms are different for everyone. What are you feeling?

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 2 points3 points ago

I've got this general feeling of faintness. Like I will pass out at any moment and that's all she wrote. Like... Game over.

I think I also have a case of sleep apnea, but I'm not sure. All I know is sometimes when I'm drifting off, I will snap back to consciousness as all the breath is leaving my lungs and my heart feels like it's doing cartwheels. Not a good feeling. Kind of leaves me with this weird body pulse that continues for a few minutes after. Hard to explain.

Right... back to the other stuff. I get muscles tremors, odd tingling pains in my left hand...sometimes in the right as well. I have noticed an increasing difficulty in focusing and remember things. Plus, there's this weird feeling in my neck, as if liquid or air is passing up my neck... I can hear it in my ears. I sounds as if spit is being forced through the gaps in your teeth... but internal. If that makes any sense....

[–]lionheartednyhc 0 points1 point ago

Sorry man, thats a lot to go through. I wish you the best. I know how tough it can be going though that, so don't hesitate to hit me up. When do you find out?

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

Got a call from my doctor. There is a "white substance" in my brain that showed up in the MRI. The diagnosis of which, he cannot determine. He referred me to a neurologist which I have an appointment with tomorrow. They wanted me to schedule for Tuesday of next week... I wasn't having that. I asked about whether or not signs of MS were present on the MRI, he said that the neurologist would have a better opinion on the matter.

[–]lionheartednyhc 0 points1 point ago

Hmm. I have to start with I am not a doctor...but I wonder if he's referring to plaque, which can sometimes be a sign of MS. Do you have an appointment with a neuro yet? Good luck.

Here is a picture of my brain for funzies.

[–]ilikefries 0 points1 point ago

Hmmmm my wife has MS and I though it was the dark spots or holes that they referred too which were the most troubling. At any rate. Don't freak out. My wife has had MS for 12 years but has constantly been on meds and works out 5 times a week. She has a little balance issues but she does box jumps, jump squats, lunges, weights, cardio (lot's of things from Julian's type of workouts), planks, all kinds of crazy stuff. There are different types of MS and the medications are improving greatly so stay positive as that's always important. Oh and heres some GOOD VIBES for you. :)

[–]HenkPoley 0 points1 point ago

[–]kimwim42 0 points1 point ago

I know the feeling, I think that's stuff in your lymphatic system. I hear it every morning when I wake up.

[–]HenkPoley 0 points1 point ago

You are aware of Terry Wahls diet plan and Angelique Corthals MS review paper? Probably has some ways to improve your life.

[–]theonlycuregirl 0 points1 point ago

Those in particular? No. But I will check them out, Thank You. Have a beautiful day!

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 12 points13 points ago

Thank you everyone for your well wishes. I just got home from the hospital. The MRI went OK. I'm a little claustrophobic so... Yeah.

Plus the noises the MRI machine makes sounds like dubstep drops.

So, in conclusion... Confined space + dubstep = my personal hell. It was terrible.

Now, the 24 hour or so wait.

Nap time.

[–]Gourmay 3 points4 points ago

Sending you some good vibes from as far back as France :) That's all sorts of baguette and pâtisserie vibrations! Be brave!

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 4 points5 points ago

Thank you so much! I plan on visiting France sometime. But only if the bread and cheese are amazing. Can you guarantee this?

[–]NeinNeinNein 1 point2 points ago

As someone with a holiday home in France who has spent many many long summers there. Yes. Cheese and bread are AMAZING. A long with many other things I can no longer enjoy since becoming a veggie.

[–]HenkPoley 1 point2 points ago

Just chiming in here as this is a multiple sclerosis thread: getting less vitamin B12 (eating less meat) and less EPA&DHA (omega-3 fatty acids, from fish) is a bad idea since MS is basically a myelin degenerative and fat metabolism inbalance disease.

Just saying. Being heroically ethical shouldn't come at the price of your health.

[–]NeinNeinNein 0 points1 point ago

I don't really understand why you felt the need to say this. All I did was mention being a vegetarian, nothing implied whatsoever other than the fact that I miss the amazing Paté and other great foods I used to eat over there when I was a kid. Also - Heroically ethical? Come on man. ಠ_ಠ

[–]HenkPoley 0 points1 point ago

Well, if you track the field for a bit you see that vegetarianism doesn't mix well with MS. So I think in the case of MS the things I said are rather appropriate. It wasn't really a reply to you specifically. You never even said you have MS. But your post was the top most post about vegetarianism in this topic about MS.

[–]NeinNeinNein 0 points1 point ago

Ah that's okay. Fair enough that you were trying to educate. The more people know..

I would never dream of pushing or even encouraging anyone to be a vegetarian/vegan, whether they have MS or are 100% healthy. That's a choice people should make on their own. So that's why I was confused, just mentioned it in passing was all! Regardless, the point was for the OP that there is so much amazing food in France and they definitely will not be disappointed!

[–]Gourmay 0 points1 point ago

Ha, op is going to think we're all vegetarian in France ;)

[–]NeinNeinNein 0 points1 point ago

No one is bloody vegetarian in France. It's hard to go out and get a nice veggie friendly meal in any of the restaurants in the town my house (It's abundant with seafood (if only I ate it), it's a fishing town). Finding vegetarian cheese isn't easy either but it's around. Amazing fresh fruit and veg though if you check out markets, loads of lovely meat stalls as well for those who aren't of the vegetarian variety. My fave thing over there when I was younger was always Moules Marinere (Mussles in white wine sauce) Mmmmmm

[–]Gourmay 1 point2 points ago

I most certainly guarantee it! Off the top of my head, St Nectaire is one to try out... So is Comté, Camenbert, Bleu de Bresse, Raclette, Reblochon and a bunch of Swiss ones like Appenzell. I'm actually waiting to move to the US to go pretty much vegan, IMPOSSIBLE here. And although I no longer partake we also have awesome meats ;) All about quality not quantity! Oh and my little baker makes little breads with Olives and another baker I like makes bread with truffle oil... GRAWR. I hope you get better soon! PM me if ever you come to Paris, I'll give you some nice addresses.

EDIT: seeing the comment below, don't worry we're not all veggies here!

[–]smootie 1 point2 points ago

I hope everything turns out well for you, my friend.

[–]defenestrate_ 9 points10 points ago*

My wife was diagnosed with MS eight years ago at age 24. She's got a very mild case of Relapsing/Remitting MS. She will have occasional visual artifacts that she describes as pretty floating sparkles. She has occasional numbness or hypersensitivity in her arms and legs, and she's tired often.

Keeping cool in the summer is very important.

It is manageable.

It is ok to be upset about your body attacking itself. Even though your body may be betraying you, still do your best to take care of it.

Not knowing what might happen in the next flare up is the biggest fear.

Copaxone was rough for her, Avonex (or Tysabri- double blind clinical trial) is easier; but everyone is different.

I find this to be a helpful mantra

Good fortune to you, and ask for some Ativan before your next MRI!

Edit: there is also r/multiplesclerosis but it's a pretty small subreddit.

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 1 point2 points ago

Wow, thank you for the info and supporting words. I'm very moved right now, I love reddit as much as the next guy (I lie... More than so) but I've never experienced other redditors caring about my well being.

It's given me a warm fuzzy feeling. It might be just the massive doses of radiation I was just exposed to... But I'd like to think it's these comments.

[–]lionheartednyhc 3 points4 points ago

It's not the radiation, don't worry. Ive had more MRIs than I can count. Still no superpowers...

[–]cockatielhour 2 points3 points ago

This is a bit late in the game, but my aunt has MS and has been living a very full and rewarding life since she was diagnosed forty years ago. Yes, she's got some special stuff--her car has a special gas-hand-lever-thing because she doesn't have the use of her feet any more, and she's in a wheelchair. But more importantly, she's been an amazing mother to a host of kids and grandkids and is a successful watercolor painter who puts out a calendar every year without fail.

It will definitely be tough if you have MS--but we are with you all the way. :)

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

I'd like to give your aunt a high five for painting with watercolors, such a bright and cheery hobby. I should pick up a hobby like that...

[–]cockatielhour 0 points1 point ago

Thanks! I'll have to convey the message. I wish I could show you them but my parents have all the calendars and stuff, they're really very good.

[–]lionheartednyhc 0 points1 point ago

Score. Might have to join.

[–]sandysquirrel 7 points8 points ago

I was diagnosed officially about six months ago, but I've had it for about 14 years. I saw you asked what MS feels like... that's a really hard question to answer since MS has so many symptoms and not everybody gets the same ones. Fatigue, tingling, muscles spasms, slurred speech, memory issues, bladder issues, pain, etc, etc, etc.

Trust me, I know how scary it is when you first find out that there's a possibility that you have MS. Instead of focusing on the horror stories you've heard try to remember that there are hundreds of thousands of people out there with MS living a normal everyday life, and that there has been some great progress in new treatments and possibilities for future cures.

Good luck to you, I hope your MRI comes out clean. If you need to talk, pm me if you want, or check out r/multiplesclerosis. They're pretty helpful and supportive over there.

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 5 points6 points ago

Thank you so much for sharing your personal experience with this subject. I really appreciate it. Not to mention your offering of private support. There's a tear in my eye due to the heart of you glorious bastards of strangers you.

I feel hope, not because of the chance of it being negative, but the opportunity to have fellow redditors by my side in case it goes the other way. I'm touched. Please don't stop touching me Haha.

[–]sandysquirrel 3 points4 points ago

No problem. Somebody was there for me when I was going through it and that was something that definitely helped me out a lot. I don't mind trying to help somebody else get through it too.

I promise to keep touching you as long as you promise not to tell my husband. :) Although I think this may be the one time he'd be okay with it...

[–]Bythmark 0 points1 point ago

touch

[–]blo0p 8 points9 points ago*

I was diagnosed 2 years ago at 19

It's not fun to keep track of medication and having to go to the doctor so often can become a hassle but it is manageable.

There hasn't been a single thing I've wanted to do that MS has stopped me from accomplishing yet. (Except having a drink when I'm out with friends but that isn't as hard as some people would believe it is)

Hang in there and hopefully whatever you had was a one time thing!

Edit: Also if you have any questions I'd be happy to answer them all

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 1 point2 points ago

Wait... You can't drink?! Well thank you for sharing with me... I hope you are well today.

[–]blo0p 6 points7 points ago

It's generally advised by most neurologists that you don't drink alcohol to worsen the potential effects of MS.

I haven't had much experience myself when I've had the occasional beer, but I do know a few people whose entire face would go numb after a glass of wine.

As far as how I am since I was diagnosed, I'd say I'm probably healthier now than I was back then. I tend to make better health choices now to try to outweigh any potential problems I'll be experiencing in the long run.

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 1 point2 points ago

Thanks for the information! I'm glad you are healthy. I hope I can manage have as well as you. You are now my inspiration... Whichever way this whole thing goes.

[–]Kravlin 4 points5 points ago*

My grandmother has had ms the entire time I've been alive. I've watched her fight it my entire life.

Good luck. You'll be in my thoughts

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 1 point2 points ago

Thank you for sharing. My well wishes to your grandmother as well.

[–]jbkarmaworks 3 points4 points ago

My mom was diagnosed with MS when she was 21.. it's not easy to watch. Just keep your head up and you'll be alright. Best of luck

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 1 point2 points ago

Thanks you for the kind words.

[–]woodycanuck 4 points5 points ago

I went through this a few years ago but thankfully came out all clear. It's scary waiting, good luck to you!

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 2 points3 points ago

I hope I am just as lucky. Congratulations to you... I hope that didn't sound sarcastic heh.

[–]lionheartednyhc 2 points3 points ago

Good luck. Diagnosed when I was 10 (am 25 now). Where abouts are you?

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 1 point2 points ago

In Texas. DFW metroplex area.

[–]ironpony 2 points3 points ago

My mother was diagnosed about 2 years or so ago. It seems people have very different levels of symptoms with MS, but she mainly has balance issues. Trouble walking on un-even surfaces has been most obvious, she can't walk down a sandy beach with out someone holding on, yet can make it across a paved parking lot pretty well. Standing for long periods is out - so she has a hard time kicking ass in the kitchen like she used to.

Consider the good vibes sent -

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

Thank you for sharing. Pass along my well wishes to your mother. Do you live near the beach?

[–]_dustinm_ 2 points3 points ago

Incoming good vibes headed your way!

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 1 point2 points ago

Runway cleared, good vibes cleared for landing

[–]jasontimmur 1 point2 points ago

Be well, friend.

[–]waxlrose 0 points1 point ago

scumbag reddit community

mocks anyone who believes in god

asks for good vibes

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 2 points3 points ago

Seriously? I like how I'm not asking for prayer (because I don't believe in it) but you still find a problem with "good vibes". I guess asking others to bestow a positive attitude upon your situation falls under religion.

[–]elephantzebra 0 points1 point ago

Weirdly enough prayer is statistically significant in healing. I've wanted to say this for ages because everyone seems to want to make logical points to prove religion wrong and work on science-based empiricism but ignore this very interesting and oft-repeated statistical phenomena. Just saying...and I'm upvoting you because you make a good point.

[–]HenkPoley 1 point2 points ago

Prayer as in meditation (doing it yourself). Keep that in mind.

[–]elephantzebra 0 points1 point ago

It was in groups as well- and I'm not making the point due to any religious convictions on my part, just throwing it into the pot.

[–]orisha 1 point2 points ago

Good luck man, the best for you.

[–]ObscureSaint 1 point2 points ago

Keeping you in my thoughts right now. :)

[–]xhybridsoldier 1 point2 points ago

Best of luck!

[–]glucoseboy 1 point2 points ago

Hang in there.

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

Thanks, that makes me feel like a cat hanging from a clothesline on a poster... In a good way.

[–]civilian11214 1 point2 points ago

I'm not 100 % sure what that is, but my thoughts are with you. Hope you are safe throughout the procedure. I cannot imagine. Positive vibes, coming your way.

[–]ben1am 1 point2 points ago

Good vibes. :)

[–]thebeegirl 1 point2 points ago

Hey will you update? Crossing my fingers for you.

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

I will update. I should receive results tomorrow afternoon. And I will update here on this thread, as to not come off as karma whoring.

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

Got a call from my doctor. There is a "white substance" in my brain that showed up in the MRI. The diagnosis of which, he cannot determine. He referred me to a neurologist which I have an appointment with tomorrow. They wanted me to schedule for Tuesday of next week... I wasn't having that. I asked about whether or not signs of MS were present on the MRI, he said that the neurologist would have a better opinion on the matter.

[–]lichtheilt 1 point2 points ago

good vibes!! my whole house is thinking of you :) Imgur

[–]num1polak 0 points1 point ago

My mother has had it diagnosed for over 10 years now, it's been tough but she is still going strong! Best of luck to you.

She has RRMS and has been through some tough spots so if you have any questions feel free to ask.

Hopefully everything turns out well though, you're in my thoughts.

[–]Fauster 0 points1 point ago

In a worst case scenario: get on a stem cell trial waiting list ASAP. It is highly probable that this disease will be very treatable soon. And don't assume you have it for sure unless they see a clear progression. Keep your head up! Everything is going to be okay.

[–]justlikeheaven83 0 points1 point ago

At first, a diagnosis of MS can be an overwhelming blow. But at least you have an answer for why you are feeling the way you do. My mother was diagnosed 6 years ago after years and years or pain, deteriorating health, and endless medical tests. After finally getting a name for what had been plaguing her for years, she felt empowered to find resources and support. She started her own local support group and another on FB and offers support and guidance to others suffering from the disease.
It's not the end of the world and I hope your health improves and you start to feel better despite a diagnosis or not. Good vibes!

[–]erasmosis 0 points1 point ago

Love and prayers. Positive mental attitude is everything. Also, ganja is great for MS.

[–]papajohn56 0 points1 point ago

I don't play Vibraphone, but if I did I would be right now. Good luck

[–]arito 0 points1 point ago

Good luck President Bartlet!

[–]steve-d 0 points1 point ago

I have a friend who has had it for years and she has stayed active. You would never guess she has it because she has been able yo manage it so well. She has flare ups and sometimes takes a couple days off work, but she has a great handle on things!

[–]Babygoose 0 points1 point ago

Any news yet?

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

I literally just woke up and checked my voicemail. My doctor had called and left a message, just stating hus call back number.

I called him back, but his office is at lunch until 1... It's 12:30 now.

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

Got a call from my doctor. There is a "white substance" in my brain that showed up in the MRI. The diagnosis of which, he cannot determine. He referred me to a neurologist which I have an appointment with tomorrow. They wanted me to schedule for Tuesday of next week... I wasn't having that. I asked about whether or not signs of MS were present on the MRI, he said that the neurologist would have a better opinion on the matter.

[–]daftroses 1 point2 points ago

Did you hear about that guy MrImSoGreat? I hear people on reddit care about him.

Please do an AMA when you're all better (:

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

Really? You think there's a desire for me to do an AMA? In my opinion, I don't think it'd be that interesting.

But... I would if enough people were interested.

[–]daftroses 0 points1 point ago

It's the human experience that I wanted to know about.

And all of the gross icky things that doctors may or may not do to you.

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

So... Go ahead and do an AMA? After my neurologist appointment? ... Or later on?

[–]daftroses 0 points1 point ago

Maybe after you talk about possible treatment with your doctor.

[–]someswedishgirl 0 points1 point ago

I just read this thread and now i'm all worried for you. I hope everything went really well at the neurologist crosses fingers

So many many hugs!

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 1 point2 points ago

UPDATE: 02/08 - Just got home from the neurologist appointment. The white substance is a 4mm sized lesion in my right frontal lobe. Doctor did a lot of balance and reflex testing. Explained that since there was only one single lesion detected, she says there is a low probability of MS. However, she wants to test further on what this lesion could mean. Meanwhile, she wants me the see a psychologist/therapist for depression/anxiety, as well as do a sleep study for sleep apnea. Also... It turns out I am legally blind. She suggested I go see an eye doctor because of the odd dilation of my pupils and the fact that after I take my glasses of, my vision is scored at 2800, I believe that's what it was. She is concerned about the lesion, as far as I could gather.

[–]Furngullay 0 points1 point ago

Sorry that you didn't get any better news. I've been checking on this post, I hope things go well for you.

[–]daringlunchmeat 0 points1 point ago

Update? How are you feeling?

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

I'm feeling terrible. With the recent stress of this diagnosis, my chronic anxiety has gone into overdrive. I daily feel on the verge of death. It's starting to become too much for me. Every thing in my life is piling on and I'm giving way...

Sorry... Had to vent. I'm starting to become dangerous to myself.

[–]daringlunchmeat 0 points1 point ago

I know how anxiety can be and how debilitating it is. Days blur together of just a constant tremor and thoughts of the most terrible things that never seem to end. It does get better, I promise. I do not have MS so I do not know the ins and outs, but I do have a chronic illness and anxiety so I do know what thoughts are spinning in your head. If you are not already on anti-anxiety meds, get on them pronto. Klonopin helps get though the attacks until another med can help regulate your brain chemistry.

It seems that there is always an avalanche of awful shit that comes one after another, but after you have been buried and feel like you can take no more, remember that it does end and you can dig yourself back out. It takes time and the right people by your side to make it happen. You will get through this and look back and think that you never want to be in that awful place again. Good luck to you.

[–]lolraid 0 points1 point ago

Will do, man :(

[–]MrImSoGreat[S] 0 points1 point ago

Thanks. :)

[–]p0wertrash 0 points1 point ago

I was diagnosed with MS back in July. It hit me out of nowhere. On Monday I had a headache behind my right eye. By Friday, I was blind in my right eye. Two MRI's later, they made the diagnosis. My vision returned to almost-normal. The only remaining issue I have is that my right eye does not react as fast as my left eye. Residual nerve damage from the optic neuritis. My doctor put me on Gilenya. It's a once-daily tablet I have to take every morning. A lot of people have had some pretty bad side effects from Gilenya, but for me, so far so good. I haven't had any relapses since my vision episode in July.

I hope all goes well for you. I know, the news will take your feet out from under you. It really made me reevaluate everything. I now try to make every moment count for me, my kids, and my wife. I try not to let them know how worried I really am, but I guess you just have to play the cards you are dealt.

If you ever need someone to talk to, hit me up.

[–]mewtashun 0 points1 point ago

"MS shows it's face in the first 5 years" - that's what the big cheese nurse at the MS clinic I went to told me. I've been living with MS since the mid 80's, dx'd in early 90's (with the advent of mri machines) and what she said seemed true - the people dx'd around the same time as I was who experienced a lot of flare ups in the first several months/years seemed to fare worse than those that had long spans between initial onset and subsequent exacerbation's.

I've found that the disease only defines you if you allow it to; in other words, any challenge can be met on the terms you set - if a door is closed, open another. If a path you are on dead-ends, take or create an alternate route, maybe a different destination. IMO it's all about how we handle what we have, not what we have.

Best wishes.